She is a Malaysian celebrity. One of the best vocalists in the country. I like to believe that Siti Sarah Raissuddin has achieved husnul khatimah. A good ending to her life. A syahidah. Amidst the news of her death however, crackheads are passing off unpleasant comments like ‘she died because she was put to sleep by the doctors’.
I wonder if these people have ever sat beside a dying person – it’s painful to watch. What more for the dying person.
If I could have my way, I would want my mother to be put to sleep during her last hours. Sedate her, give her more morphine. Anything! However, sedation and assisted ventilation was not an option for her because her prognosis was guarded. Administering a drug, especially with anti-conscious properties, without proper indication may be misconstrued as euthanasia. Hence, us siblings could only watch helplessly as mom’s breathing becomes more laboured, gasping for air. I could only hope that her hypoxic state would further reduce her consciousness, so she would not be aware of how tired and painful she is. And that whatever’s left of her is on autopilot mode, where the body (without the mind) is just doing what it can to stay alive.
The pain is such that she was on her lateral side most of the time as she tried her best to breath, until it came to a point when she was ‘ready’. Just like that, she turned into a supine position, took a few deep, long gasps of air and heaved her last one. As sad as I was at the time, I was relieved that the pain was over for her. She can now rest in peace.
A friend sent me this article to help me in my grief. Perhaps it could help you too.