The gifts for 2022 bday

The collab, Bad Decisions was released on my birthday. I had thought that Agust D would drop his track this month but no.. it did not happen. I think there was a VLive sometime last month where Namjoon said he will release his album in the near future. Earlier than Agust D? Anyway, I will take Bad Decisions as a bday gift from bangtan to ARMY’s celebrating birthdays on that day.

Speaking of songs, sometimes… when I need to raise my self-esteem or something, I’ll stream Prince’s song – The Most Beautiful Girl in the World. The birthday celebration is ongoing for a month. LOL. My husband gave me 2 sets of Elianto products. One is a makeup set and the other one is a beautiful selection of perfumes, body mists and EDTs. Enough to keep me fragrant until next year. I Superlove them all. They smell so nice! I need to declutter my old, expired makeup products and clear my vanity again. The collection of skincare and makeup items is growing!

I’ll make a blog series called ‘On my vanity’ soon. Kind of to share what’s on my mini dresser.

I gifted myself a tower of books this year. The initial list was longer but I restrained myself from going crazy with the carts in Shopee. Plus, I still have a TBR list on my Google Playbook.

Remember last year how I have this new friend out of the blue? This year, this friend also sent me the gift of energy. I received Zus coffee and a pandan cheesecake. The friend was worried that I wouldn’t like the selection but I told the friend that I loved Zus Coffee products, so it’s totally fine!

August and September will be interesting months as we head towards the National Sports Day celebration. There will be games and mini leagues in the following weeks.

San1 shi2 jiu3

Nowadays with the flooding of news and information on social media, one needs to filter their feed. I have been removing some profiles from my friend’s list on Facebook for reasons such as the;

  • Being inactive or have deleted their profile
  • Not having a recognisable profile pic
  • Pushy MLM gurus. I still keep the non-pushy ones cause well.. they are still friends
  • Having crossed to the dark side of medicine and is very irritating with their posts

I have recently removed a friend because he was accused of a crime. A crime involving modesty and privacy. I was appalled when I found out as he was a very unsuspecting person. In fact, he came from perfect family background. There seems to be a video of him committing the crime and the one who told me said that the resemblance was so uncanny, the location was so relevant and that it was too difficult to say that it was not him. So I removed him from my list of friends until an exact verdict comes out.

It worries me that although I think I accept Friend’s Requests from my circle who I think I know that they are good people – we can never know their true nature. What if they’re wolves under the sheep’s hide?

It is also disappointing for me as I thought I am able to read someone’s character very well. And yet I still kena kencing by patients, friends and family alike. Need to strengthen my psychological strategy. More reading. More application. More interactions.

In the meantime, let me just say a Happy Birthday to Minci. May she be spared from all the pain in the world. That she may remain benevolent and pure. That she may continue to advocate like the INFJ person that she is, always.

Visiting graves

Come to think of it.. it is actually for us. The ones left behind.

In movies, I see those who frequent the cemetery would bring flowers or anything to lay on the grave. Here, at the Muslim graveyard, we don’t get flowers but sit there for a while and recite Surah Yasin as a gift for the deceased. Hoping that their space will be lit with Nur and that they are resting in peace.

At the place where we buried mom, the individual plots have grass on top and sometimes some sort of plant. We would water the soil on every visit. In a way, I guess it is comforting to see that the plants we water would thrive well. It also serves as a reminder that we should visit more often. Make dua more often too.

I should visit more often.

I should.

Happy Birthday Mummy – AlFatihah

When mom died, I honestly felt something missing from my life. It feels different and indeed it was missing. You know what is missing?

A mother’s prayer.

The doa she makes after prayers. I mean, don’t we moms always say a prayer for our husband and kids. That they will be protected, that they will gain success, that they will be happy and all..

Yes, I felt that. The doa is not there.

This is not to say that my life was miserable. It’s just that previously it felt that mom is always with me, every step of the way, no matter how bad my life choices can be. And now, it is just me.

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I read an article recently. About a couple with children. Both with jobs with specific demands. It came to a day when the couple both had urgent tasks to accomplish at work. At different workplaces. This would mean having no one to look after the kids.

The ultimatum was – the husband left for his work. Saying that his work matters more as he earns more. the wife was to stay at home. Regardless, the consequences.

A few hours after he returned from work, the kids were in the living room eating cereal and the wife locked herself in the bedroom. A lot of the comments were saying that the child was childish. Some were saying she is stressed with her job and needs therapy.

My verdict: there is probably more to the story. she hates her husband. very much . most likely forever. and it will be a start to her having her own world in her own brain. Soon enough, she will be unable to tell what is real and what is fantasy. They can still co-exist and co-parent but much of her soul is just not with the family anymore. It’s just being present. Being responsible for the role she chose to play some time ago. . That’s all.