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The 4 people

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At the moment, there are 4 people who are driving me insane. Truly insane to a point that I feel my death is better than being alive. Interestingly, these 4 individuals have a few common traits and way of thinking.

  • They are powerful. They are invincible. They put themselves on a pedestal at all times.
  • They like to think that they have me twirling at the end of the fingers. I know their game, and I am playing it willingly because my peace of mind is more important. To me, only Allah is my protector, and He knows best the outcome of the ongoing drama.
  • The more you get involved in their lives. The more they are willing to hurt you because they think they own you.
  • They have no idea that they are hurting the people who care about them.
  • They are always innocent.
  • They have zero insight that they are terrible people, driving people up against the wall.

With time, I am going to end up with an autoimmune disease or end up dead in my sleep.

Dreading raya

Posted in Ponderings & Personal Development by

I am really hoping that the upcoming Ramadan will give me that extra boost in motivation to be a better human being. I have to admit this new year started off with a suffocating vibe. What kind of person starts off their year with threatening words like, “I am going to be a mean person this year”

Yes, people like that exist.

Anyway, I am not looking for Raya this year for personal reasons. Hence, I have put myself on call for that Eid week. Just so I can say “No, I’m not going. I am on call”. I might even volunteer to cover for outside events if any need a medical team on standby.

This is just a thought at the beginning of February. I’ll see how it goes later on.

Geleum

Posted in Ponderings & Personal Development by

Marriage is not for everybody. Nor is having children. But once you decide to have them, you should try your best to give your best. Amidst of the craziness happening inside your head.

Children soak things like sponges.

Adults guide them to root their beliefs to the ground because as the children grow up, they will start seeing the many deviant things. New, exciting things.

It will become moments of

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I get now why Allah said it is a big sin to kill people

I understand why love means different things to different people at a different time

Family – broken or not, you don’t get to choose your parents

You don’t know what your destiny is

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Imagination is one of the best things for a human to possess. You get to create your utopia in your head. But when the utopia spills out from the barriers of the brain, insight and logic – you are what they call as crazy.