Noticeable signs of ageing in me

I aim to age with grace. Even then, it doesn’t mean that I will let myself go. Perhaps, the most difficult thing so far is to shed a few pounds. I keep renewing my resolutions. Exercise is so hard to do. In the meantime, age builds onto yourself together with life wisdom and experience. I cannot fight the physical changes of ageing as it is bound to happen. So the next best thing is to embrace it with measures that will make you happy.

It kind of makes sense why some people turn to aesthetic services. I didn’t really get the purpose before but now that I am approaching 40, I can see why. This is because you begin to see obvious changes in your physical appearance. While some can be less visible with skincare and nutrition, others may require intervention (if one chooses to do so).

SKIN COMPLEXION

Acne locations rarely occur at the T-zones. Instead, they conquer the perioral and chin area. Which is a nuisance. As this is the place where you eat and usually touch as you ponder on something and all. It gets worse with now that you are wearing masks to protect yourself from Covid-19. The acne sometimes turn into pustules and when it bursts, causes scarring to the face. The problem is, acne happens with the menstrual cycle. Since I’m getting older, with less collagen and slower healing properties, the acne would pop at the SAME PLACE and the scar never fully heals. It can be frustrating.

Solution. for this, it needs a combination of good skincare and nutrition to provide particles that help in building that skin barrier. As of now, I am very consistent with my toner, moisturizer, sunscreen and retinol regime. Every now and then, I would use a beauty mask sheet at night for extra moisture and improve skin complexion. I am also currently adding on a sleeping lip mask from Laneige for plumpier lip appearance. I incorporated lots of salad in my diet. I am trying to get more apples on board. As for supplements, I am now consuming the soluble vitamin C you buy in Watson (any brand is fine) and Gluthathione for its anti-oxidant properties. The latter costs a bomb. So I plan to use it for at least 6 months and make further decisions from there.

GREY HAIR

I’ve had grey hair since my early 30s. It’s a genetic thing I noticed that happens to my maternal side of things. The grey strands also grow in a specific area which is at the front part that frames your face. It’s like the ones Rogue have in X-Men. To me, it looks great but with time, when the hair texture becomes less silky and smooth, the head looked a bit too frizzy and somehow I resemble a hagged witch.

Solution. To improve the hair condition means using good hair products. Again, proper nutrition. And recently, I turned it Gumash Hair Colour, a henna based hair dye to kind of give highlights to my hair and improved it’s texture. Personally, I think a trip to the hair salon regularly would solve the problem by getting some sort of hair treatment done.

DROOPING AT THE CORNER OF MY MOUTH

Because I make Youtube videos that feature only the bottom half of my face – it does look strikingly obvious. It’s as though I sulk all the time with a glum mood when in fact, it is just my normal resting face. This, I cannot really do anything because it has to do with face muscles. I will need to do some more reading on perhaps some exercise that could lift that muscle or go for an aesthetic procedure. I think I read somewhere that they can use fillers of some sort.

SUPER SLOW METABOLISM

Previously in Ramadhan, it is easy to lose between 2-3Kg during the month. Nowadays, the scale stays the same number even though I am on a calorie deficit. This inevitably means that exercise is the only way possible for me to lose more inches to my current body shape. My BMI is overweight and I’d really want to achieve an ideal BMI. The clothes would look better on me honestly, because finding a ready-made petite wear is difficult because of the cutting. The cuttings are usually for someone with an ideal BMI. The current me is petite but with a body size of those who are taller. Gosh, how do I even explain this. Ha ha ha.

That’s kind of a few changes I have observed in myself so far. Do you experience them too?

The old, lonely road

“Seven Ages: first puking and mewling
Then very pissed-off with your schooling
Then fucks, and then fights
Next judging chaps’ rights
Then sitting in slippers: then drooling.” 
― Robert Conquest

Once in a while we chance upon an elderly patient with a sad story. 

He who has neurofibromatosis and lives alone till old as no one wants to marry him because of his appearance.

He who was an ex addict and now is paying his penance by living in isolation as his own family members think HIV is contagious from a simple touch.

She who losts her husband in an accident and refuses to leave the house she’s staying in because of the memories it stores throughout their married life.

She who bore 10 children and yet not even one turned out to be someone of great use.

Them who couldn’t have children since the early days and the only adopted child they had,  passed away earlier.

Them who depends on the charity of others to live because the world just moves faster than them. And they don’t know how to ask for help.