It’s been a while since my last Youtube video. I think it was 3 weeks ago. I wanted to post it earlier but was swamped with adult responsibilities. Family, work, personal matters. I took a day off last Friday just to uraikan benda2 yang berserabut. LOLS.
The clips for this YT video have been sitting still in the folder for quite a while.
Posted a mini vlog a few days ago. As a filler to Season 4. Cause the YT Gurus said you need to be consistent in your uploads. So that YT will consider pushing more of my content to others. My target market is not Malaysia, so we will see how it goes. The uploads are getting a bit slow. Momentums are a bit off. I think my challenge now is time and the side stress factors I have to deal with.
Sometimes I ask myself – sure ke nak belajar Psychology nih? What is your endpoint?
Until I remembered Namjoon saying (I think) something about making happiness part of your journey, not an endpoint. Or an ambition. In a way, I should just enjoy the learning process. I should also not look too far ahead. Take it one step at a time. Breaking it into little trips so that I wouldn’t be overwhelmed. Kalau nak terus fikir Master and phD tu susah. Statistic tu susah. It will become susah.
I have the Chinese language part of my module currently. Susah ke? Yup. But if I think of all the benefits I would have in learning a new language, it will all be worth it. As long as I persevere and remain consistent.
In an interview, Suga BTS was once asked if he was given a chance, which song would he like to record or again or remaster as they call it. Namjoon made an educated guess by saying that Suga would record none. To him, whatever was produced at the time was the best version and effort they have put into the piece. I understood his point.
You should always create an output, even in daily life, your best. The best meal. The best of yourself and others. Of course, there are times when you are not at your best but always do something that will make you proud in the future. It will not be perfect but it will showcase your personal growth in mind and matter.
There are plenty of tips online on how to grow your Youtube channel. The most popular one I came across from a lot of video gurus is to be consistent in your uploads. Some even suggest daily uploads of anything. I don’t think I could do that as it will compromise quality and what I hope to show on my channel. So, this is the best I can do – weekly or 2 weekly uploads.
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Farewells are inevitable. Personal goals may collide with organizational missions, conflicts occur and one has to prioritize what is important for all. This month 2 of my colleagues are leaving. One due to family commitment and the other due to contract issues. I was deeply saddened by the latter because it was a difficult choice to make. I know I wouldn’t have the courage to resign from MOH. I’d be totally lost on what to do.
Not that I haven’t been thinking of resigning. It is still in my alternative goals in 10 years’ time. In fact, I have cut it down to 9 years now – I just have to make it work. As long as I am not taking on new financial burdens and keeping my expenditures at an acceptable amount, I would be OK to resign at the expected date.
The initial reason being I thought there will come a time when I may need to serve my elderly parents, and tend to their needs while bringing up my own kids. With mom passing, leaving only my dad the pressure is less on that part since he is kind of dating someone (secretly) right now. So that future stepmother better rises to the occasion when the time comes. Jgn nak kikis harta je tau. Dah kenapa tiket bas pun my father has to buy for you.
In a way, the intention to resign now is maybe so that later I could help my mother in law to care for not only my father in law (or herself) if she falls ill but also my ‘fruit children’ on both sides if the situation calls for it. It’s like if Nora needs a babysitter for Aurora, I could help her. Or if Kona needs someone to shuttle her kids somewhere, I could do that too. If my brother needs to go somewhere, then I will go with them. Macam tu lah..
but to do that, I need a solid financial standing first. And I’d like to have that MAsters (at least) in Industrial-Organizational Psychology. Ada rezeki, we pursue a PHD.
My role in this farewell party is very menial. I just compiled the video clips and make them into one. I need to improve the audio though. When I play it without the headphones, it doesn’t sound good on a normal speaker. Why ahhhh..
I was ecstatic when the theme was purple. Bora is a colour so close to ARMY. And BTS of course. They are the Grammy’s this weekend followed by a concert the days after in Vegas. As much as I want to buy the online streaming ticket (ada ke? ) I decided not to, in respect of Ramadhan. Let’s liven up the days and nights with ibadat instead. Plus I have an exam on the 12th and 13th.
Then, I can go crazy. lol.
It was a mini celebration for the kid’s birthdays. To be honest, I still feel lemau and not up to socializing but for the fam – I will fight No Mood and get on with it. As a Youtube amateur, I managed to create more than 1 video for 2021. I was aiming for 10 but it was harder than what I perceived. The motivation needs to be there on top of great organization skills.
Afterwards, I need to get a pen and paper to sort my thoughts. The brain cells are a bit chaotic up there. I decluttered the blog’s followers the other day. I discovered that most of them seemed like bot accounts, a few were inactive and some appeared dodgy. So, I am back to nil followers today and see if the content I put in writing here is worth new subscribers in the upcoming months.