Author Archives: Minci 先生

31.07.2024

Posted in Everyday Life by

Dear Mader in the grave,

Happy Birthday. Your kids are doing okay so far.

As for your ex-husband, he’s currently moving on. I mean, why not. It’s already been 3 years since you died. He is getting to know a lady from abroad. He sent us a long text message telling us about his intentions to Insya-Allah getting hitched soon. He also shared with us the criteria for a woman he sought when he first started dating. He wrote about how he filtered out a few ladies because they were not his type.

Here’s the thing mother. Someone’s taste in looking for a potential partner never changes. There is always that underlying criteria that is shared regardless of how many men/women someone’s been with. For example, even if I have a bias in BTS, you’d be surprised to know that the bias is chosen because, at the end of the day, the bias is just like my husband. In character. The only difference is that the bias can dance, rap and compose a song. And of course with commercial features.

Back to Dad. As he told us about his idea of the ideal woman he’s looking for – that was when I realized that you were not his type. Which explains the kind of life that you led. It somehow made me reminisce back on a few moments when he tried to form you into the type that he wanted but perhaps to no avail. You were after all a woman with a strong will who also knows what you want as well. You were smart even though you have no scroll to prove it. Alas, the world back then was not built for women to become independent. You can but it will be very difficult. Dad was somewhat your means of sustenance and so you just made do with what you have. Forgoing your dreams, your wants and needs.

I suppose you both feel happier now. Separated from each other by death. Because neither of you wanted to be the bad parent who wanted a divorce. You get your peace. Dad gets his ideal partner. It may be a bit too late for both of you. But then, perhaps this is what Shakespeare means by All’s well that end’s well?

Exhausted pigeon in 2024

Posted in Everyday Life by

At the moment, I am in the phase of just ‘going through the storm’. I have so many things to do but my CPU is not at its optimum. I tend to break up my year into 3 parts consisting of 4 months. Before this, the trend has always been busy for the 1st and 3rd part of the year. However, this year I am experiencing an exceptional amount of mental burden during the 2nd part of the year as well.

Thus, the trend of off days I am giving myself also tends to be longer as compared to before. I attribute this to the constant thought and process of my OUM final year project but the dynamics of the team for my NCD and HIV unit at the workplace have also changed. I will need to revise a new strategy next year to ensure that humans and technology (systmone) can work together. It’s because the data is not syncing.

I have put aside YT Vlogging and Netflix series bingeing for now. I am also not doing much photography this year. These activities are my outlets to relieve stress and unleash creativity. I hope to rekindle them again by the end of this year once I am done with everything.

Glorified beings

Posted in Current Events by

Recently a senior physician kicked up a storm with the fraternity of Family Medicine Specialist and Public Health Specialist. She said the earlier was a ‘glorified MO’ whereas the latter was a gone case. I knew immediately based on this comment that he/she is probably one of those doctors who say they can sleep only 2 hours a day and have seen millions of patients in their lifetime. Her words were basically an insult to the experience and expertise the FMS and Public Health Specialists have regarding to their realm of knowledge.

Perhaps she did not weigh in on the patient factor when saying that FMS failed to manage their patients early. Here’s the thing. In Klinik Kesihatan, we deal with patients with a disease that is well. This means they do not experience symptoms of system failure or complications from a disease. Despite the advice, they’d be saying ‘I feel well, I do not agree with the treatment plan’. Or ‘If it gets worse, I would go to the hospital’. In case the physician forgets, there is something called autonomy and consent. Hence, no matter how well the intention is to make the patient better, if they refuse, they have the right to do so.

Till now, the FMS and Public Health fraternity have yet to receive their public apology but I heard that the physician’s comrades have taken note of her conduct formally and seriously. There will be repercussions although I have no idea as to what it will be.

Altercations between disciplines are inevitable. However, to take it to social media may not be the wisest channel to vent and rant. Often there are times I’d feel the same about my counterparts in the hospital but experience and professionalism as a senior MO (or is it glorified HO now?) refrained me from doing that.

The fall to the ground is more painful when you are at your peak. So, be careful.

Side quests

Posted in Everyday Life by

I had thought that after my recent side quest of presenting the clinic CME on Domestic Violence, I could concentrate on one of my main quests. Which is to work on my final year project in psychology. I’ve got everything planned and suddenly, Allah being the best planner, gave me another side quest.

Hence, I am trying my best to maintain a positive outlook on this new task. It’s a Prostar programme under the district health office. Medical officers are hand-picked from several Klinik Kesihatan to participate. I happened to be one of them. I am not thrilled because right now I wish to be more focused on helping my diabetic educators settle the ongoing NDR audit. It’s that time of the year when we’d have to do this on top of our already packed schedules. I can turn a blind eye as it is not part of my job list but I have been accustomed to adopting a servant-leadership style for my team.

The Prostar programme will beg my commitment for a few Mondays whereas my NDR audit is something I will look into during non-peak hours. Perhaps I will squeeze in the data-extracting process during lunchtime. I’ll see how it goes.

As for my FYP, man, I want to complete this by the end of this year. I cannot take it anymore. I want to browse social media like crazy once this is over and start vlogging again.